Today is one of those cool, windy, cloudy, kind of dreary fall days. The kind of day when it’s best just to stay inside and bake, drink some tea and clean house. So that’s just what I’m doing today. I have a batch of buns on the go, some water warming for a cup of tea and my house is relatively tidy and the baby is sleeping. Ahhh…. Time to relax a little and write down some thoughts.
I think the reason I haven’t written anything for a while is because I haven’t felt there is anything to write about. We are back to normal life around here (or maybe we are becoming more accustomed to our 'new normal'). We haven’t done anything or gone anywhere special in the last while and we are just putting along merrily as the days go by. Far too quickly I might add! I just packed up the first batch of clothes that Adalyn has out-grown. I’m so excited to watch her growing and learning new things, but at the same time it’s so sad to see my little new-born doll getting bigger. It’s funny how that works. She’s not that new tiny-wee baby that everyone oohs and ahhs over when I go shopping anymore. She’s become just another baby to everyone else, but to me she’s still my little darling and I marvel over her cuteness every day! It’s really quite awesome to watch her take everything in, her eyes wide open in wonder at the smallest things. Things like the leaves blowing on the trees, or a pattern on a couch, or a stuffed pig. She’ll giggle and get so excited over little things, like seeing herself in the mirror, or standing, or Daddy singing a silly song to her. God has truly given us a gift and I think we as adults have a lot to learn even from a baby. Oh the JOY of life!! I don’t want life to get old and boring; I want to keep my eyes open in wonder at all the marvelous things Jesus has done and is doing, and to marvel in all the things that God has created!
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| A visit with my Great Taunte Lena. |
It’s easy right now to feel like my life is just the same old story day after day. My days mostly consist of playing with Adalyn, feeding Adalyn, changing Adalyn’s diaper, helping Adalyn go down for naps, doing our laundry, tidying, making food and cleaning the kitchen. I have discovered that if getting married required you to get rid of your selfish ways, then adding a baby to the mix creates the ultimate environment for working on selfish behavior! We only have one child and I can imagine it only gets better as you involve more kids. Haha (or worse, depending on your view point!) It’s not that I don’t enjoy the things that I do-- this is always where I wanted to be in life -- it’s just that sometimes I get tired of doing them and lose the perspective of how important my role is. It’s a hard concept to describe. There are just times that I wish that I could do what I wanted, when I wanted and have no one else be affected.
I was reminded of an old song the other day, the chorus goes like this…
”We have this moment to hold in our hands,
and to touch as it slips through our fingers like sand.
Yesterday’s gone and tomorrow may never come,
but we have this moment today.”
These thoughts got kind of mumble jumbled, but I think in the end I wanted to say that I want each and every day to be lived in fullness of joy and in a way that brings glory to Jesus. Mark and I have been reading a book by Joseph Prince called ‘Destined to Reign.’ What a revelation of GRACE!! I think I have been missing this point for a long time! The only way to live this way in joy and bringing glory to Jesus is to believe in His grace and the fact that our sins are already paid for. We have been made righteous through Christ! It is not something we have to work towards. We ARE made righteous by the blood of Jesus. Right believing leads to right living. Become Jesus conscious, not sin/self conscious! Anyway, hope that all made sense in the end!
